January 2, 2009

Sometimes I think that the only thing we can truly rely on is God.

My New Year's was not brought in celebrating like I should.

I'm not sure what step I am suppose to take next.

I am afraid...

very afraid.

I wonder if things are even possible and that scares me.

"All things are possible if you believe" (Mark 9:23)

Do you think that is really true?

If it is God's words it has to be true.

I'm not sure of much these days.

I don't know what I want....so don't ask me

I'm still trying to figure it out.

Trying to see through the rain.

Is life really suppose to be this hard?

God never promised an easy road.

He promised to be there with us on that road.

Last night I pretended for just a little while that everything was fine.

I forgot all the thoughts

All the anger

All the hurt

And I just let him hold me.

I miss that so much.

Eventually I had to wake up

I had to face the reality of the world

Of my life

But for just a little while I forgot

That was nice.

Unfortantly reality always comes back.