It's official

Well, its official. My son has figured out that he can get out of his bed without me coming to get him...

I knew this day was coming, I expected it, but now that its here I'm wondering what the future holds.

Maybe that's a little dramatic.

Or maybe not.

My new experience started last night. Bed time is 8pm. He doesn't always go to sleep at 8 but he knows that he goes to bed and if he reads his books or plays with a truck....I really don't care. As long as he stays in his bed because eventually he always falls asleep.

Last night I heard a ton of banging coming from his room. I peek and he is opening and closing the drawers on a dresser. As soon as I say his name he quick runs back to his bed and jumps on.

Obviously he was not doing ANYTHING he wasn't suppose to

Tell him to stay in bed, 5 minutes later, I hear it again, repeat same scenario.

This time I make sure he understands, he doesn't have to go to sleep but he does have to stay in his bed

"o-k mama"

Walk by his room a few minutes later and he is sitting on the farthest edge of his bed so he can see in the hallway, he his technically still on his bed so he's got me there. As I walk by he gives me a HUGE grin. Mostly a "I'm still doing what you told me to do" type grin.

At this point I attempt to talk stern to him telling him to get in bed but I utterly fail at this as I cannot stop laughing, which leads him to throw his head back and laugh heartily.

I guess I need to work on my "poker faces" for parenting.

I gave up and let him be...checking on him a while later, he had finally fell asleep, and the perfect little angel that he is, always listening to his mama...he was still on his bed. =)

Pink, Pink and more Pink

It's a girl! Boedy will officially have a little sister next March! I am very excited but also very nervous as up to now it has been "all boy" Boedy already tells people he is getting a "sissa" =)

Moving day is in 3 days! I can't believe it is already so close! Also a mix of excitement and nervousness, but I think it will be good. It will be so nice to actually be a family again and live our lives together again. I'm anxious for Boedy to get settled into his new life and make the adjustments before baby comes too!

I'm sad to be leaving my workplace. I've spent so much time here the last 2.5 years and it will be sad to leave my co-workers who have become my 'work family' I don't think it has set in that I will not be seeing these people everyday and I am so thankful to have found such wonderful people at work. I will miss them so much and not sure how I will adjust to not being here everyday!

But life is an adventure and I am excited for our next phase. I am excited to be a full time mom and wife and spend more time with my husband, son (and soon to be daughter) I am excited about pursuing my education more and I am so thankful that i am being given this opportunity to acutally do these things as I realize that not very many people are able to. And I am glad that I am able to see how lucky I am for this opportunity and be able to appreciate it and thank God for the blessings in our lives. My marriage is happy and my son is happy and I am happy. I'm sure my daughter is happy with all that yummy chocolate I ate earlier =) What more could you ask for??

The countdown begins!

T-minus 18 days until we find out the sex of the new baby! Boy or Girl??? We will have the answer soon!

T-minus 28 days until the big move. Work has been notified and it is now official! Still a little nervous about my transition from working mom to stay at home mom but guess we'll see how it goes!

I am just starting to feel baby kick here and there and am remembering the one positive of being pregnant. There is nothing like that feeling. I am so far doing well in 2 trimester. Morning sickness=gone, backache? Not here yet. Ahhh....the honeymoon of pregnancy. Biggest issue in my life these days? I have nothing to wear. So I guess I'm doing pretty d@mn good!

Mission for this weekend...maternity shopping!! I wouldn't say I'm excited about expanding my wardrobe with expanding clothes but it will sure be nice to have more than 1 pair of pants that fit!

And lastly? My adorable little 2 year old...who is never difficult and always does exactly what i want him to do when I want him to do it. (sarcasm inserted here)

sickness

Nausea is part of my everyday. I wouldn't say that I enjoy this but I do enjoy the fact that a new life is growing because of it. A few short weeks and hopefully I can get to just eating, normally, and in large quantities.

this weekend I had big plans to make a quick trip to Fargo to pick up a few shirts to continually hide my "thickening" waist.
Literally, as we were coming into Fargo Boedy threw up, on himself, in the car. I chalked it up to a little car sickness, mostly because the idea of turning right back around after driving 50 miles was not something I was willing to do.
I cleaned him up, and decided that shopping for a new shirt was also in order due to the stench that was now radiating off my child.

We were in Target for about 10 minutes and he threw up again. In the cart. On the items in the cart. On himself. Alright, maybe not car sickness, but he was acting fine, so of course, lets continue the shopping.
Made it through the trip and sat down to eat and again...all over the floor...not just a little this time.
I made the executive decision that it was time to go.
Again, I had to go to a Target employee and let them know what my child had just done..again. I think they really like us there.

A drive home and a 4 hour nap later...everything's fine!

However, I did not get any shirts.

Changes, Changes, Changes

I keep having this dream that I will begin to blog on a regular basis and have important parts of our lives forever documented. I'm obviously really great at that so far...

Changes are the word of the week, month and year.

This past weekend we moved EVERYTHING out of our old house. And into the new house 3 hours away. This is all still sinking in, although was a little more real as I sat in the new house (which is smaller than the old one) and tried to figure out where the heck I was going to put everything. Currently most things are in one bedroom with the door shut. Of course to add to this mess, Hubby is living up there, Boedy and I are still 3 hours away living with my parents and I know nothing more at all from the military about a deployment. The idea being that if hubby gets deployed soon rather then later we would be with my parents during that time instead of in a new town knowing no one for the entire deployment. I know the military well enough by now that our family's plans don't make a whole lot of difference either way so for now we continue on this crazy back and forth pattern, although I'm starting to wonder how much longer i can really keep it up. Pray for SOME kind of news soon.

To add to our current stress is excitement is a new little life! Next March we will be a family of 4! I'm still letting that news sink in also. Nothing seems quite real yet, but we're pretty excited. I'm anxiously awaiting a first doctor's appointment in 25 days. Seems like forever! But with so much going on I'm thinking the entire pregnancy will fly by (at least that is my hope)

Hubby just left for his annual training so we won't see him for about 3 weeks. We continue to move forward with our relationship and enjoy each other and our marriage. I still can't forget what a miracle that is and am blessed to be able to see it everyday of my life.

Back to work...I can't avoid it forever.

I am praying about deployment news, for my son and his well being during all these changes, the new life that is growing inside me, and don't forget for my own sanity during all the craziness!

Heavy Heart

I have learned that my godparents are getting divorced. I feel such a heaviness on my chest and have trouble breathing when I think about it. It seems he has been unfaithful and just walked away, after 27 years of marriage.

I read my godmother's words of her pain and I can't help but feel her pain with her. I have been there, seen those dark days and lonely nights. It is a feeling you do not wish on anyone or anything. Betrayal, loss, anger, sadness, grief, pain, numbness. I remember those feelings all to well and I hate seeing someone I care so much about go through it now.

I've reached out to her as someone who understands. I felt this urging to reach out to her and be that person, just because I know how important it was to me when I finally found someone who understood me. I had lots of family and friends THERE for me, but I needed someone who UNDERSTOOD me. I know it was God pushing me to be there in this situation. That maybe good things can come out of horrible situations.
I feel so lucky that my marriage has come to the point it has and that the last couple years have been survived and are most importantly behind us. I love my husband more than anything and our relationship is at a better point than it has ever been....but the road to get to where we are now?

Not pretty.

At All.

And we're still traveling that road,not even close to the end and we are not anywhere near perfect. I think we will always be traveling the road. I think we should always be striving to make our marriage better and better.

never in my life would I go back to those dark days. God only knows how I got through so many of the hard times because some of them I can't even clearly remember.

I feel all these emotions running back through me and I hate it, but it is different this time because it is not me...but someone who means so much to me.

It is different to be on the other side, but yet I still understand the darkness.

I sometimes feel like I can't breathe again.

I hate this, I hate that she is going through this, I hate him for doing this, And I am scared that I will never see him again at the same time.

I am praying for the right words to say to her so that I can help. I feel so helpless even though I KNOW my words can make a difference. Please pray that I get them right.

Slacker

I've been majorly slacking on updating my blog. Unfortunately I've also slacked on starting the Love Dare and am upset I haven't started that either.

I shouldn't need the daily encouragement to make my marriage better, but life gets so crazy sometimes that adding one more detail seems overwhelming.

My family continues to work on the big changes we are dealing with currently. All the changes are becoming a little more realistic and I've been so tired lately dealing with everything, emotionally and physically.

Really now, should I be waiting for my son's 8pm bedtime so I can get in bed by 8:30? I swear my nights use to START later than that!

My family is still coming into a very new exciting, scary, happy, sad time. I am experiencing every emotion right now and just hope that we are making the right choices together.

If you can't tell...I am HORRIBLE with change.

I am going to be experiencing a lot of it.

Am I 98% excited and 2% scared....or 98% scared and 2% excited???

I'm not entirely sure.

So I'll keep praying about it. He knows what will happen so all I can do is trust Him with everything.